First and foremost I want to apologize that this has taken me so long to post. I am working on intentionality and it is a weakness.
I thought for the most part Sat. was good. I love having Monica and her Mom and Janine from Flood and I look forward to getting to know them better. I thought that with the weather being so amazing we would have had more people at the park, but I am always surprised, whenever we think we know the in's and outs we really don't. I was glad the we had some funds donated from Rulands ie. Ruofs, and from Vineyard. We had a lot of great stuff to hand out, like sunscreen and deodorant and chap stick for the warmer season. I guess I have been struggling with the fact that I didn't feel a lot of real interaction taking place. I really saw the reality of peoples brokenness, especially where addiction is concerned. It is heart braking and at the same time on such an amazing day I was having my own heart issues. I really wanted to be home having a BBQ and a beer and hanging out with my family. I wonder how long it will take me in my life to love the way Jesus loved. I long to love that way. To Not judge the pregnant addict, or the kid in Safeway stealing out of the hot food but buying a beer, or the Cops that are always harassing the homeless guys in the wheelchair at Walmart. Who is at fault there? The guy asking for money or the people that give it to him to enable the lifestyle in which he lives. These are hard questions for me. I am a judgmental person and I strive not to be! I strive to be like Jesus. I will keep striving until the day I die to Love the way he does for this amazing Kingdom that he has given us and the people in it. I am a broken person just as the homeless people I meet. There is only a home and the Love of Christ that really stands between us. I pray that this will be my attitude from this day forth.
Kellie
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Thanks for the post Kellie. It was very honest and real. I appreciate that. I can relate to some of your questions and feelings. There are many times when I don't feel like loving others. It can be inconvenient or akward to do so at times too. Sometimes I am just so tired with all that goes on with family and work that I have so little left for others. That makes me think that it is so important then to make sure to be doing the things I am supposed to be doing, and nothing less or more.
Ryan
Kellie - I noticed the lack of interaction, too. This is the first time in a long time where I can't remember us really connecting with anybody, or getting to pray with anybody.
I'm still glad that we were able to help some people, though.
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